Clinging to My Rosary

My rosary is light pink crystal beads. 
I got it for First Communion.
I am sure, but don’t’ actually truly remember. 
I had an unusual First Communion.

We never prayed the Rosary at home growing up,
but when I was in college or after
I taught myself the essentials. 
Our Father, ten Hai
l Marys, Glory Be… 
then the creed?  I know in that last 20 years or so
they have added that Fires of Hell prayer. 
My mother hated that
and said it was not official
and not theologically sound. 
From what I hear of it, I would agree. 
But I just don’t pray that part. 

Besides, the Rosary is not meant to be a group prayer. 
I learned that in a class from Fr. Bill Traylor. 
It seems phony to me when we pray it as a group.

I have trouble putting certain
so I tend to ponder the favorites: 
Nativity.  That’s the mystery. 
The rest is pretty clear cut,
in one way of thinking about it. 
It comforts me.  It helps me sleep. 
When I am really worried or panicky,
I sleep with my Rosary or wear it under my clothes. 
When I feel it, I feel calmer.  It works for me.